im sitting here in this little room. i want to smoke a cigarette, but she took the lighter with her. so ill wait. im sitting here on her bed, thinking about time again. thinking about what she said. about whats gonna happen. whats happened. the future is a blur. and the present is too foggy to tell how dark it really is in this room. through the fog, thousands of tiny photons tickle my senses. the light is so bright and happy. i want them all to take me with them, away from time and space. but its too foggy. so ill wait. til they lift me up so high that ill never touch this muddy earth again. but its the gravity pulling me. pulling me closer to the answer. so ill wait. find some matches and choke down a cigarette in the cold. so ill wait. thank you for letting me use the camera, the world stops for me when i push the button.